In a paradox

Wonder if life had none but plays
With flowers floating on a meandering river
Pebbles flow as the green grass sways
In a gush of wind with subtle shiver
A thought I gave to this and lo!!
I ended up in His distant paradise
Crimson sunrise made a lovely show
I forgot sorrows, I forgot the demise
Of one whom I had loved with my heart
And let him enter every room of mind
The loss had broken them in pieces apart
So I sought oblivion from someone kind
Alas there wasnt any peace perpetual
In the frolic which ousted his last memory
The pain kept me alive, kept me real
I dwell in laughter now, but solitary
That a thousand pain showed how he lived
In my soul which though shattered was alive yet
The dark was to erupt with the moments I had grieved
Only I told my folly the desire to forget
The end was near to the stories that surround
However I sought for a receeding trail
That would take me back on a white cloud
To his home in heaven I miss without fail.....